JOZAN!

Mula minat semenjak Maharaja Lawak. masa tu, tgk ML pun sbb Nabil. Sbb at 1st, of all the RLs, paling minat Nabil je. masa minggu 2/3 of ML tertengok part JOZAN. alamak best, pulak! esp masa tu, Nabil punyer part makin tak best. Lg satu, sbb tgk JOZAN is apart from Nabil, diorang je yg penampilan acceptable...hehe..(sorry, i admit, i am prejudiced and biased n choosy...haha).

Anyway, dah lama tahu Jozan wujud kot...tp to me..dulu2 tu,.biasa2 je..but between Johan and Zizan, dulu, i prefer Johan kot..x tau nape...mungkin to me, dulu, Johan lg femes kot..ntah..

So, sejak tgk ML ni, obviously aku start cari their old vids...tgk byk2...lama2 terminat pulak kat Zizan...sbb dia cool, n nampak lagi berbudi bahasa n lebih jaga nama baik dia.

Kebetulan pulak, masa start minat Zizan ni, nama dia tgh betul2 naik...menang Fave TV Personality 2010 Shout Awards, dilantik jd hos Melodi TV3 yg baru, hos ABPH 2010, pastu meng pulak Artis Komedi Lelaki Popular 2010 tu...

Tp have to admit, klu dr segi melawak, Johan lg lawak drpd dia..Johan ni, nmpk mcm diri dia mmg mcm tu; ckp main lepas yg funny,very loud...byk ckp. Bila dia melawak, i klu gelak betul, lg lama bila tgk lawak dia- kira more impact laaa lawak dia...cumanya, i x taula nape...dia ni mcm kurang aura...dia now dah ada byk show tv sendiri...mmgla lawak, tp i xde rasa any magnets nak make me watch the show sampai habis, pastu, dia jd hos kurang smooth...i tgk pun sbb nak tgk gelagat2 dia...tp i persan, bila dah lama sikit je, dah jadi bosan...bila dia jadi dj radio pun camtu...kesimpulannya, dgn Johan ni, i rasa kurang magnet la....Atho now ni nmpak rezeki dia lg murah drpd ZIZAN.

Zizan pulak, altho dia kurang lawak, suka dgr n tgk bila dia cakap. Suara cakap dia sedap. And bila dia cakap, smooth je, kalau tersalah pun nampak mcm tak salah. Klu buat lawak pulak selamba je...Lg satu, klu interview dia psl kontroversi apa2, jwpn2 dia sukala...matang, berhemah, berbahasa...Lg satu stylo jugakla mamat ni...Tu la je sbb2 aku suka mamat ni more than Johan..

I do much prefer when they were portrayed together. Klu diorang melawak bersama, aku gelak jenis terjatuh kerusi punya!...haha...but, seriously Zizan, lately ni, even when u guys are together, Johan over-shadow u sgt!..yr interviews lately ni pun hambar je...ye la i/views to promote yr movies/ vid clips....

Btw, Zizan ni lahir 5 days earlier than me...haha..

I tulis post ni sbb kesian sgt2..kat Zizan ni pasal movie HB dia...malas nak cerita...dia dah apologise, explain n evrything..altho actually not totally his fault...I mean, i x rasa pun dia ni alim sgt ke pape pun, so to me acceptable la sikit apa dia buat dlm HB tu.mungkin dia sendiri kurang ilmu, kan. I x rasa dia salah pun dlm keadaan ni...Tp, org punya hentam dia, altho dia dah mintak maaf....Bro, u mintak maaf @ Twitter n Facebook apa dpat? Benda ni dah jadi masalah nasional. Kena masuk national news n papers!

Silap2 dia kena interview dlm Melodi yg dia sendiri hoskan....tp, jgnla nak gam dia....Na'uzubillah..tu je la rancangan terkini yg aku boleh gk dia...klu tinggal Dira je, sah2 aku x tgk pun Melodi, tu..

Adoyai..dia ni cuma mangsa keadaan je....tu je...kesianNNNN sgt2....dahla i tgk dia tak se-sucessful Johan semenjak 2 menjak ni...filem2 baru next few months semua ada Johan.. in addition to the shows i mentioned above. Si Zizan ni sonyap je....x taula apa nasib dia pasni..

Wey Zizan, dah pnat2 aku minat +kesian kat kau ni, klu kau sengaja buat benda2 x patut lepasni....siap kau!

If i were to marry...

http://www.suhaibwebb.com/relationships/am-i-marrying-the-right-person/

Asik2 topik ni. Kebuhsanan la..Tapi harini i just have to write on this bcos a lot of thoughts going on in my mind about it.

1st of all i agree dgn artikel ni.

If i were to marry, i harap sangat it would be with my best friend/ true friend, yg accept me for who i am, etc. pernah dgr tak, 'A true friend is someone who you can sit with in silence, but you feel like you had the best conversation in your life!' Org yg mcm ni la i nak. Bukan ni je la. Byk lagi ciri2 'lelaki idaman' i, cewah..;)

Hmmm....byk lagi thoughts u had  on this topic, like my criterias for a future husband-thus why i sometimes tak layan/ avoid some guys yg clearly 'intersted'...it's becos diorang tak memenuhi spesifikasi big time!
Tapi, tiba2 malas pulak nak tulis dah.

Basically, i tau i at risk of ataupun mmg dah terlebih umur ideal utk kahwin for perempuan, but i rather be choosy than menyesal seumur hidup.

I am choosing to BE choosy!

Sudahla, since umur pun dah lewat, i dont care anymore really. Kekdg tu mmg hati tersentuh tgk kwn2 sebaya atau junior2 ni dah kahwin and ada 2+ anak. Aatupun yg bakal kahwin dlm masa terdekat. Tapi, buat apa risau pasal ni, tu kan rezeki masing2.

Allah tak bagi hak ni, dia bagi hak lain, Insya Allah.

Prinsip hidup i now ialah, i hanya akan plan for esok hari sahaja(as in the day after today only, ), i tak nak risau/plan for future yg jauh2 sangat..sbb plan2 sgt pun selalunya tak jadi,kan. Baik dalam kerjaya mahupun kehidupan. Klu plan pun yg perlu sahaja.

Allah knows best for us.I'll let him bentangkan the next chapters of my life in front of me- and i'll take them as they come.

Nak kempen Shahir (yg artis, bukan adik aku..hehe) masuk Imam Muda!

Sebab;

1) Suara mmg sedap, dia dah pernah masuk pertandingan Tilawah (sampai peringkat Kebangsaan), Hafazan, nasyid pun...kira semua2 yg dipertandingkan dlm Imam Muda tu dia boeh buat.

2) Nak suruh bagi ceramah pun boleh, cuba tgk cara dia cakap, klu masa dia cakap pasal kehidupan/motivasi/rohaniah

3) Dia ada x-factor - looks, peribadi/ personality bagus, berbudi bahasa..

I nak kempen cos i rasa dia x patut masuk AF n masuk dunia hiburan. Dlm dunia hiburan, dgn x-factors yg dia ada tgkla apa dah jadi. Banyak sgt benda2 tak patut, gosip murahan.

Cemana nak menyeru umat Islam Msia tu ke arah kebaikan? Cos dia kata nak smapaikan mesej melalui jalan yg dia pilih ni..

Shahir3! (ala2 cheerleader) Masuk Imam Muda! or jadi mcm Asyraf Muslim!

Difference between me & him

He's very objective. Semua benda kena relate to intellectual stuff. Tapi he's still very good in people skills, decency, courtesy, common sense. Satu je la, bab sayang2, cinta2 ni, dia x pandai nak manipulate, end up hurting...ME!

I pun objective, tapi masa kerja je..tu pun byk je i subjektif...using my 6th sense, reading into ppls' words and actions...but obviously with using the black&white data jugak la..
Tapi bila bab sayang2 ni, i nak orang tu show it properly, in words AND actions...and must be EXCLUSIVE! I kuat jeles ok..

Ni, dia dah cakap L word dulu. But, i rasa masa tu sbnarnya dia tak ready lagi, cos too soon after his previous r/ship. I tak nak jadi 'rebound' dia. I pulak x pandai confront, thus gaduh, thus the on and off separation that we had..:P...sakit hati aku aje

Sebab tu i tak nak get involve dgn dia lagi, sbb to be honest still sayang, cuma i cant see us going anywhere..and i x nak waste anybody's time..

Tapi, now ni, i dah 18+9 (as Wani puts it!..hehe),  I AM OLD ok...
So, sbb dah 27 ni, i pun rasa, what the hell, i tinggal 3 months pun lagi kat UK ni, and ada mamat yg kept trying to get back with me, i pun decide i'll just make use of him! Just next 3 months!

Altho sbnarnya, maybe dia pun tak berniat to get romantically involved; habes dia asik ajak aku keluar sana sini even since declare separated tu buat apa? Do u really know what u want? Saje nak play with my feelings? Ke dia treat All his kawan2 pompuan camni? Setahu aku, he's a quie busy guy; apart from pegi hosp jadi doctor, di pun tutor A  level students, and buat revision courses for med students..

Sbb tu la, i better be careful,
Tapi, what the hell, kan, tinggal 3 bulan je ni, baik i buat praktis...pepandai la control perasaan sayang tu, Sayangi diri sendiri terlebih dahulu..huhu

Why i finally agreed to go out again

Primarily sbb it's my final 3 months in UK.

Pastu, di ajak jalan2. Mestila i and Wani nak. Dahla dia ada kereta, apa lagi..

Also, dah banyak kali dia try ajak aku keluar..last2 i give in la ni..

Since i ni kan suka pikir banyak sangat, i obviously started thinking of Kenapa dia ni selalu nak sangat ajak i keluar?

We have established we shouldn't couldn't and weren't lovers..Just Best Friends..altho dia dah ckp the 'L' word first dulu2..

Mebe dia ajak i keluar sbb as bday gift (note dia tak tau pun bila bday aku!). maybe, just to treat me nicely sbb i dah nak leave him for good, maybe nak end the break-up nicely so that dia tak feel guilty. Klu pasal sbb yg last tu kan, sbnarnya dah lamaaaaa gila since the last time we 'broke-up', and stopped seeing each other outside work too often. Tapi at work, still ckp hi and borak biasa..

Since then, every now and then, dia still ajak keluar, tapi i adaa je hal, thus tak gi keluar.

2/52 ago my bday dinner. tu pun Wani yg ajak dia sekali...since then selalu pulak sama shift dgn dia, selalu jumpa within the neighbourhood and he kept trying to ask me out..

I tak nak think too much/ assume...i think i'll just assume he just wanna be friends..

I ada baca ' Why your Ex still wants to be friends with you'....ada bnyk reasons..but i'll assume the worst and pick My Ex's reason is he wants to appear as the nice guy and wants to end it nicely...

Tapi, masa kitorang keluar semalam pgi New Forest, banyak pulak bebnda yg mengingatkan kami kepada sweet memories dulu2....

Note, we are usually advised that 'being strictly platonic with your ex is never possible'..
Betul la jugak..bila keluar dgn dia, i straight-away acted like how i usually do when i went ou with him before..mcm tak kesah je, sakat je dia, suruh dia angkat brg2 berat, share food, etc

Antara sweet memories yg teringat kembali, dia pegi reminisce about the last time we went out for a car-ride to the same area before, reminisce pasal zaman kitorang study together...

I pulak start share food dgn dia like dulu2...i guess tu biasa je with sape2 pun, tapi bcos we r actually so comfortbale with each other actually, masa share a packet of crisp, i yg pick out the crisp from the packet and put in his hand, sbb dia tgh driving,kan...

One single sweetest thing that is making my heart properly 'soft' all over again is, him giving in to me on one of my silly suggesstions..Dia ni a person yg suka challenge whatever u say..ada je arguement dia to disagree with you or suggest a better idea..And klu i make a silly suggestion/ sakat dia/ make fun of him, mesti dia buat2 tak layan/ argue/ make fun of me back...Never dia akan agree meekly..

Semlm i perasan side-view mirror kereta dia tinted blue..i tny la dia, apsal? Dia pun kata, dia tak perasan pun...i kept mentioning about it throughout the whole trip. dia mcm buat2 tak dgr/ tak layan..pastu we came across pink-coloured cars yg looked really nice, yg i pun kata 'aaa i really like that car' ckp dgn wani..pastu, on the way home, i cakap kat dia, lain kali side-view mirror tu buat tinted-pink...dia cuma jawab 'OK'..tu je..xde dia nak argue apa2 to retaliate.. i was like, eh, this is something different...sbb everything else yg i cakap masa tu, mesti dia nak elaborate/ argue, etc..

Tu je la telah hit my soft spot....sigh..

I really DO BETTER BE CAREFUL. Don't let myself get hurt again!

New Forest

Today, all 3 of us, Wani , ex and I post-nights.

Mula2 igt nak gi bfast je..

Last2 ended up pgi New Forest; makan brunch dgn horses and jalan2 along the quaint town of New Forset/Lyndhurst....

Ni gambar candid(Wani ambik) ; see how tak jalan sama2? Nama pun Exes...heheh

I wanna stop thinking too much!