He's very objective. Semua benda kena relate to intellectual stuff. Tapi he's still very good in people skills, decency, courtesy, common sense. Satu je la, bab sayang2, cinta2 ni, dia x pandai nak manipulate, end up hurting...ME!
I pun objective, tapi masa kerja je..tu pun byk je i subjektif...using my 6th sense, reading into ppls' words and actions...but obviously with using the black&white data jugak la..
Tapi bila bab sayang2 ni, i nak orang tu show it properly, in words AND actions...and must be EXCLUSIVE! I kuat jeles ok..
Ni, dia dah cakap L word dulu. But, i rasa masa tu sbnarnya dia tak ready lagi, cos too soon after his previous r/ship. I tak nak jadi 'rebound' dia. I pulak x pandai confront, thus gaduh, thus the on and off separation that we had..:P...sakit hati aku aje
Sebab tu i tak nak get involve dgn dia lagi, sbb to be honest still sayang, cuma i cant see us going anywhere..and i x nak waste anybody's time..
Tapi, now ni, i dah 18+9 (as Wani puts it!..hehe), I AM OLD ok...
So, sbb dah 27 ni, i pun rasa, what the hell, i tinggal 3 months pun lagi kat UK ni, and ada mamat yg kept trying to get back with me, i pun decide i'll just make use of him! Just next 3 months!
Altho sbnarnya, maybe dia pun tak berniat to get romantically involved; habes dia asik ajak aku keluar sana sini even since declare separated tu buat apa? Do u really know what u want? Saje nak play with my feelings? Ke dia treat All his kawan2 pompuan camni? Setahu aku, he's a quie busy guy; apart from pegi hosp jadi doctor, di pun tutor A level students, and buat revision courses for med students..
Sbb tu la, i better be careful,
Tapi, what the hell, kan, tinggal 3 bulan je ni, baik i buat praktis...pepandai la control perasaan sayang tu, Sayangi diri sendiri terlebih dahulu..huhu
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