Well,to cut a long story short, in the end we went separate ways...
Writing about it yesterday actually brought back the hurt involved during the so-called r/ship.....sigh...dah lama dah i berjaya hilangkan perasaan ni...Ingatkan just writing about it will help me sort out my feelings (x payahla, sbnarnya dah lama sorted out dah...)
That's why i am separating myself from him this year...ye la klu ajak buat apa2 atas nama kawan biasa pun i tak nak pgi, cos i know perasaan suka tu akan dtg balik and a whole cycle will repeat itself..
Also, tahun ni kan nak balik Msia, nanti diri sendiri yg susah involve kan diri dgn benda yg tak boleh bawak balik Msia...
Itula, masa bagitau Mama few years back, dia mmg tak berapa gemar Tapi i continue jugak, altho tak la involved mana pun...klu compare dgn orang lain, biasa2 je....
Bercinta dgn Allah lagi bagus; hati tenang, ganjaran lumayan and berkekalan...
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