Teringat masa zaman 'falling in love' dulu...;P

Remember when your heart beats very fast? Your hands and feet become very cold? You walk around with a spring in your steps? Feeling like in you are in cloud 9?

Hehehe...

I x tau nape, lagu kat atas mengingatkan i when i went thru these before..

To be honest, sekali je dalam hidup i rasa macam ni..and it was towards somebody yg i x sangka langsung!

We met thru a mutual friend. Study group sama. Klu nak tau, mmg masa mula2 kenal dulu, tak suka gila mamat ni. Sebab cara kitorang study sangat lain. Taula dia pandai dah ada Phd in Chemistry fr Oxford, tapi masa study group kenala go with the flow!..Ni, kitorang dah masuk bab lain, dia still nak stick to benda yg dah lama kitorang tinggalkan, sbb dia nak paham cara dia!..Kesimpulannya x suka gilala mamat ni!

Itu masa middle of final year medic. Pastu, sbb masing2 yg lain dlm group tu dapat attachment mosly outside Ston, towards the end, tinggal kitorang 2 je study sama2. Pegi hospital practice on patients sama2, study kat lib sama2, kdg2 at his house dgn jiran dia sama2...

I ni, bila study dgn laki, i paham at some point akan terada 'feelings', tapi masa tu nak Final Exam dowh, i mmg tak terlintas langsung bebenda tu. Nak2, mamat ni ada background dia sendiri yg i pasti dia takkan ada masa utk bebenda camni...

Dahla kitorang punya personality Clash big time, ie i introvert, dia extrovert...i x suka argue. Dia suka challenge ppls' statements...ee..malas nak layan..

On the other hand, actually i would say mamat ni is a good guy la, and very mature..Altho dia suka argue and contradict others, after about 6 months kenal dia, and last few months tu hari2 jumpa...boleh nampak actually he has a good heart, we share the same values and outlook in life to quite an extensive extent. Jarangla i jumpa org yg sama dgn i camni..

So, how it all began?...

After 2 months of quite regular study sesama...one day he let me in into quite a big secret of his life. Masa tu, i pahamla dia dah trust i. I ok je. Sbb slalu sangat org let me in into their secrets...kdg2 bukannya pun i kenal sangat...diorang saje je nak luahkan perasaan/ nak share. Since he first kasitau secret tu, selalu la dia share masalah dia...lama2..towards 3rd month dah jadi best friend....

Mmg best friend Only, ok? Neither of us i don't think pernah terpikir more than that..Study sama2, Bagi moral support nak Final Exam...share masalah yg boleh ganggu study...Also, cos obviously dia lg pandai dari aku, bykla dia yg ajar masa study tu, hehe...pastu klu gi balik hospital pegi praktis dgn patients, diala yg hantar naik kereta dia...hehehe

I bersyukur sgt Allah anugerahkan i kawan mcm tu masa tu, cos final year adalah tahun yg made me sgt nervous! I wouldnt say most difficult year, cuma u r jus nervous takut tak pass..

1st time dia indicate dia suka i? Yg i first notice la...x taula mebe masa dah jadi best fren tu dia dah attempt tapi i blur kan(perasan tak i)..tapi yg paling tearng, jelas and nyata ialah masa the day before our first paper!..what happened was, kitorang gi study depan lib.masa tu kan summer, panas. Gi la duduk luar..Selalunya mmg kita study 2 orang je,that day ada our other study group-mate join.

So, masa duk kat luar tu, dudukla mcm dlm circle, kan? Sbb panas, diorang ni sukala kejap duduk, kejap berdiri.Kejap gi beli air, kejap beli snack. Aku je duk diam2 atas rumput tu.
Ok, i kena explain dulu yg altho i selalu study dgn mamat ni, dia sangat jaga courtesy, batas pergaulan semua. so, u know, like duduk x dekat2, kira xde nak try2 any stunts la...
Tapi, haritu, different story altogeher! Lepas bangun beli air, dia datang duduk dekat2 next to me and share baca buku dgn i! I dah, kau ni buang tebiat ke, woke up from wrong side of the bed ke..nak kena ketuk dgn aku?!
And afterwards, his eye contact, body language and gestures dah lain dah....
So, pepahamla....

Since i started study dgn dia, sampai jadi best friend, selalu jumpa, i x pernah pun bagitau my parents...i dunno...maybe i rasa x penting kot masa tu...I cuma kasitau bila 'nasi sudah menjadi bubur',,(masa dua2 dah suka sama suka la)..we didnt do anything wrong, ok? I kasitau pun after one month kot dah jadi more than friends..tu pun bila dia dah explicitly cakap...

So what happened between then and now? Maybe u can grasp from my fb statuses or i'll let u know at another time, in another place ;)